Part I, Part II
On Monday, March 31st I will return to work. For those of you that don't know, I am a high school teacher. I have been on leave since December 19th. This will be quite a shock to my system for several reasons.
First and foremost, I have grown accustomed to spending my entire day with my daughter. She is fun, cute, and happy. I have no need to "escape" her as she doesn't scream or cry very often, and she is pretty self-contained for a three-month old. I love to watch her interact with her environment. She learns something with each touch.
Secondly, I believe that my teaching muscle has atrophied. It is as if I am returning from summer break, but my students have (hopefully) been learning in my absence. I am also not sure what I am walking into regarding the work of the substitute. What if she has decided that she doesn't need to grade anything from the beginning of the quarter? Ugh.
I had tossed around the idea of staying home permanently, but I don't think I could do it. My husband makes enough money for us to live frugally (which I would like to do anyway), and I don't need many of our luxuries. But I feel that if I stayed home I would be wasting my education, and I would also be cheating my community by depriving them of a good teacher. (No, I'm not cocky, but I know my skillz!)
I wish I lived in a world where I didn't have to make this decision, but for now, it is either stay home and feel less than complete, or go to work and feel guilty.